- have you ever felt... -

frazzled?? - yes, this' how i've been feeling lately - i feel i've got so much to do [most, with due dates] & nothing seems to be getting done

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i, along with angela, coordinate a haitian camp every year in february & here it is january 4 & i've not sent out the flier yet!!! - the date all reservations have to be in, is january 16 [eeek]

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i've got our family 'newsletter' done & it's been done for over a month, but i've still not gotten them printed & mailed out [it started off being a printer problem, now it's just a lazy thing i've got working] - here it's january 4 & these were to be our 'christmas cards' [eeek]

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we wanted to have ahniér dedicated at church & have been talking about it since she was born [she'll be 4 months old this thursday!], but haven't gotten it done yet - not only did we want it done, but we really, really wanted it done before dustins sentencing date, so all 6 of our kids could be there...just in case [eeek]

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i wanted to be caught up on bills by now [we were staying right on track for many years, but after we helped dustin out financially, adopted ahniér & moved, i've really gotten behind on our bills - it's not that we're in financial trouble or anything like that, but we're just...behind [eeek]

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mom, don't read the rest of this post or you'll hit the roof! - just stop now & go read someone else's blog...k? [smile] i wanted to get into my heart cardiologist [as some of you know, i'd open heart surgery when i was 18 - they replaced my heart valve & i've to go in for yearly checkups for them to monitor me as i'm on coumadin/blood thinner as my blood's got to be very thin to go through the mechanical valve that i've got in me] - well, i didn't go last november/2008 as things were just waaaaaaaaaay too hectic [i know, don't yell at me!] & here it's january/2009 now & they're usually on a 2-3 month 'wait' to get in - that wouldn't be all that big of a deal, typically, but i've been having chest pains for 3-4 days now [don't tell my mom cause like i said she'll hit the roof as she knows nothing of this...it's not like we all don't have waaaaaay more important things to think about at this time in our lives!] - it didn't bother me the first day, then the 2nd & 3rd days came & i was a bit more concerned, but got up today & it's still there - it's not even a tightness, like i've had over the years from time to time, this' more of a hurt??? - spike & brit are the only 2 that know - dustin came over this weekend & stayed all night & we all sat up until like 4 am playing euchre & had a wonderful time & there was nooooooooo way i was gonna miss out on that - i'm sure it's nothing & i'll be fine, but i'm calling tomorrow to set up an appointment for sometime in march hopefully - i know i could've said something to others & had them praying, but i know how many prayers are going up for our family right now & with god knowing me as he does, i knew he'd change a couple of those prayers over to cover me & my heart at this time - my heart's been breaking into a million pieces here lately [figuratively], but it's not break anymore [literally]

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well, that's about it, so i'll let you all get back to read more 'cheery' blogs!