- Mixed Emotions -

alright, here's what's going on today...

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as most of you know, ahniér was born in september [pictured above, with her 2 pearly whites showing!] & we've been completing her adoption, as is required for our state [ie: homestudy, background checks, etc.]

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we received a letter from our attorney a few weeks ago, stating that tomorrow [tuesday, march 17, 2009] was the adoption finalization, but that there wouldn't be a hearing as no one was contesting it & everything looked great on paper, etc. - it said it'd be pretty cut/dried & it'd be done through the mail [attorney to attorney] - after all the 'paperwork mailing', attorney to attorney was completed, we'd receive a copy of everything in the mail & we'd be done [YEAH]

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well, i just got off the phone with our attorneys secretary & she said that our county's requiring us come in tomorrow for a formal hearing!! - not only that, but we've got to go before the same judge that sentenced dustin, just 2 months ago [man, talk about bringing back horrible memories! - you can read that post called 'A Heavy Heart', if your memory needs refreshing] - this judge is known for 'trying to make a name for himself' & i'm sure hoping he doesn't show himself tomorrow afternoon, in a negative way

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please pray with us that it'd all go smoothly [we can sure use something smooth these days] & nothing's thrown at us that we can't handle, because i feel i'm just teetering on a cliff, with a toe-hold most days, so smooth would be a huge blessing!

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please pray for me/us as this judge/courtroom, etc. is the last time we saw, touched & hugged dustin & the feelings are all still so raw - after tomorrow, it'll also be the courtroom that will finalize ahniér's adoption & once & for all, make her a shepler...our daughter in the courts eyes

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with kiara having the stomach flu all last week & a VERY full weekend, i got up at 4:45am to not only a very fussy baby that's down with a tummy ache, but also have ruby running a 103.6° fever - so many mixed emotions are running through my head right now, just pray